Old Friends, Kidney Infection and Anger

Journal

As I pound the keys, I will tell you that I’m in a pissy mood right now. The kids keep talking.. “mama… this”, “mama… that” and Ryan has started his “why” stage late in life. Why did it have to hit NOW! I don’t even know why I feel like this. I want to punch something including my face. 

I started a kidney infection yesterday. It’s just progressively gotten worse. I want to just sleep and run away but NO!!!! We have to go be “cheerful” and social. I was so excited to go see some of our best friends, R_ & R_, but now I just want to be left alone.

Arg.

Dinner was crappy. I just through something together. We had sushi rolls. The rice was crunchy (I don’t know why because last night it was great) and wasn’t even sticky rice. Where is my sticky rice bag? I had bought 2 different brands of seaweed to try which one is the best. Well, I FOUND OUT! The stupid things fell apart. You couldn’t even roll them without tearing! Stupid things!

I am slacking on so many things right now. My calling is slow right now so I think I am letting other things slide. 

My house is a mess. I can’t vacuum or mop or mow the lawn or trim my trees so I just haven’t cleaned the bathrooms or watered my plants or finished my projects or….

I still have my emergency preparedness stuff to do. I haven’t sent my monthly email out and am stressing that we or the ward are not prepared. St. George even had a earthquake a week or so ago.

Oh, the (kidney) pain! Ouch. It’s not horrible but enough that it throbs and it sucks. I had to text Danny to tell her what’s up. Mark doesn’t think I should go but I am determined to go. I missed my workout today but it’s ok, I hope.

Well, we are here. So time to be “chipper”. BITE ME.

[I am so grateful for great friends. I don't know why I was so worried. I love R_ & R_. I ended up having so much fun. I have missed them. It really cheered me up and encouraged me more to keep going. Thanks guys!]

I started antibiotics and was doing well the next day. The pain was better but I was nauseated. I told Danny she might get me to puke after all. LOL However, I won!