Smaller Clothes Don't Lie

I have all this week to catch up on but those posts will have to be added in later. It was a great week... Here is yesterday's & todays for now.

Sat. January 29^th 2011

Smaller clothes don’t lie.  As clothes get bigger, we rationalize, they may have just stretched out and/or lost their shape but clothes that were once too small are a different story...

Today was a busy day of cleaning.Yeah! Bday parties & the General Primary Pres came to speak.

But the best part of today was trying on old clothes. I have 3 skirts which I wore a few years ago (one was to my sister-in-laws wedding). I tried them on only a few weeks ago and they were still too small and tight around my thighs and stomach area, but I at least got them zipped up, at the time, which was improvement.

We had a wedding to go tonight. A long-time family friend’s wedding and I wanted to look good. I don’t know what possessed me to try those skirts on again but I did. AND THEY FIT!!!!!!!!! Not only did they fit but they fit comfortably!!!!!

AMAZING what even a few weeks can do!!!!

Also I couldn’t stop playing with my wedding rings. Sliding them on and off with little effort. They are my skinny judge. Haha

Great Day!

Sun. January 30^th 2011

If my black skirt fit last night, this morning, I wondered if my orange flowery skirt fit too. YUP!!!! I am soooo excited. I had to call my parents and brag! Then I had to tell my close friends while at church. Is it prideful to boast about things like this? I am proud of myself and the changes happening…but is it bad to talk about it? I always wonder what my friends think too. Are they jealous (those who are trying to lose as well)? Do they think I’m prideful? Or may be they don’t even really care? Hmm… I like to think they are excited. Those I told today seemed genuinely excited for me.

I got to wear the skirt to church today. I think it was cute. Nice plain white shirt, orange skirt, and fitted jean jacket. I even wore my silver square earrings. I haven’t worn those for years. They never seemed to look good; they framed my face wrong. However they looked awesome today!!! It was so fun; I didn’t even care that I hadn’t shaved my legs, haha.

Even Bro. Browning said I was “looking good and had the whole blond hair thing going”. Hehe. It may sound weird, to other people, to have another (older) guy saying that but if it had been anyone else it would have been creepy. Yet, Bro B_ is like… a father? No.… I don’t know. Anyway, I love him and his wife! They are awesome people.

I’ve probably said this before but I am always reminded how much I have wanted to stop this program/training/food/etc. I see so many people start things, lose a lot of weight, everyone notices and then they stop.. Never finishing. Never quite getting to the finish line. Why? Do we just get proud of ourselves for what we have accomplished and say that’s good enough? Do we think it takes too long? Maybe all of the above.

       Whatever the reason may be, we can’t stop. Times like this I see flashes of The Biggest Loser scenes when contestants talk about how they would be so close to finishing something but were too scared. Never quite going all the way. I thought, “I’m not like that at all.” “I’m not afraid to finish.” Now I wonder… Maybe I am...

When trying to getting back on track after our trip, I felt like I had already accomplished a lot. Why do I need to continue? It would be so easy to stop. Yet, I KNEW I couldn’t. I pushed myself to get motivated again. It was an out of body experience, having to force myself to keep going. I don’t know how else to explain it. Even today, after hitting it hard again, I still have to remind myself to NOT STOP. What’s that line from movies?… ‘M-u-s-t--K-e-e-p--G-o-i-n-g.’ Pres. Shields once said (refereing to the NLV stake), “We do things because they are difficult not because they are easy.”

My how time flies. That’s something else I have noticed. When you are told it may take a whole year to lose all the weight it seems sooo far off, however when looking back the time went by soo fast! I can’t believe that I have been training with Danny for over 6months already! Crazy!

One last thing, after all that I have been through with this back issue I feel eternally grateful for so many blessings. The song today really touched me.. “Because I have been given much I too must give.” What can I do to give back?

Food

Breakfast: french toast

Snack: handful of dried apricots & cashews

Lunch: chicken salad sandwich w/ pickles, mushrooms, garlic granules, pepper, onion powder, mayo, a few dried cranberries, mustard on a whole wheat bread. (I know I wasn’t suppose to have my fat yet but I did)

Snack: chicken salad mix w/ 5 large multi grain crackers.

Snack: dinner was way late. I had ~1Tbs pb & some honey

Dinner: Chicken salad mix

I had way too much fat today. No more.

I’m not sure what my weight will be like tomorrow but I am excited to find out what my measurements are.