Because he was stapled to the chicken.Gotta love the kiddos! :oD
Thank you ALL for the pick me ups!!!!!!! It always helps to hear those!!! You are the best!
I sure wish we knew it all and could move on. I guess then we would all be skinny and fit, lol.
Well, I finally made it back to the gym!! Though it was slower than usual, I walked for my 70min of cardio while doing arm weights. It's amazing how it makes me feel. Even when the back first flared up, a few weeks ago, the only time I felt relief was when I was working out. Strange, but cool.
Sorry I've been MIA... Here is catch up.
Friday, I met with Danny. Excited to weigh. I was feeling skinnier in my face and hands. My wedding ring was slipping right off! (the start of a goal I have). I was hoping for at least 2lbs but really wanting and sort of expecting more. Weigh time..... and the result is.... zero. 0lbs lost. Ahhhhh. Stupid scale.
I was so mad I told Danny I wanted to box today. She had me do a small obstacle course and then we got to.
It felt good to hit something as hard as I could. "If ever I was to get punched in the face, it would be today" -Danny. We decided that if we lose a head or leg it would drop the weight we wanted, haha. Did you know the human head weighs 8lbs? I decided I would bring my Mashoonga swords next time...
She said she would weigh me on Monday and if it still hadn't changed much we would change up the meal program again.
Saturday, of course all my upper back muscles were sore from boxing. It was kinda nice for a change. I haven't had sore muscles for a while.
Fri meals were good. Sat morning started out good but ended not so good. I went to my parents to spend the day and swim. My mom was making strawberry jam. Strike one. I love strawberry jam so I had quite a few "tastes". It was finger lickin' good. I only had 3/6 of my meals. Strike two. The meals that I did have were good though. Frustrated but oh well. It was a hard day and then being around temptations wasn't great. Sunday is a new day...
Sunday, I am so depressed today. You guys don't want to hear this but I need to write it, sorry.. you can skip the rest.
Today, I didn't want to eat anything I'm suppose to so I didn't eat at all. (I know that's not the answer) Took a nap and skipped lunch. Whats the point in trying so hard to accomplish the same thing or nothing, faster?
I want to be done! 6 more weeks and I will have been training for 1yr with Danny but I'm not even half way done! When I started I figured at the most it would take 1yr to reach my goal. Well, here it is almost 1yr and not even half way there. It's not like I started at 400lbs or anything. I comes back to the sub-conscience self sabotaging. I or somebody else sets a goal for me but some how never reach it. I don't know why.
Example: I started out GREAT last year. With 11lb every 3wks, I was losing faster than her best client thus far. Goal was I could have 80lbs or more off by Christmas but never reached it. (Man I haven't even reached that goal today. Arg.)
I know I've lost 50lbs so far and I'm very proud of that but I want to be done. This is so frustrating. I'm tired of fixing 2 meals, i'm tired of not being able to eat what I want (sometimes). I'm tired of trying harder and nothing happening. I'm tired of measuring and timing my meals. I'm tired of stomach aches after every meal this last week+ (too much protein?). I'm tired of not being able to get on the stairmachine. I'm tired of my back hurting and not being able to do what I want and believe it or not, not being able to vacuum or do the dishes. My house is always dirty now. I'm tired of the gym being my life. I'm tired of expecting (very reasonable) goals but NEVER reaching them!!
I'm the one who always says Never Give Up. It must be for me, ha. But I'm done. I would say Time for some ice cream (to make me barf haha)... but probably not.
The End. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow.
Thank you ALL for the pick me ups!!!!!!! It always helps to hear those!!! You are the best!
I sure wish we knew it all and could move on. I guess then we would all be skinny and fit, lol.
Well, I finally made it back to the gym!! Though it was slower than usual, I walked for my 70min of cardio while doing arm weights. It's amazing how it makes me feel. Even when the back first flared up, a few weeks ago, the only time I felt relief was when I was working out. Strange, but cool.
Sorry I've been MIA... Here is catch up.
Friday, I met with Danny. Excited to weigh. I was feeling skinnier in my face and hands. My wedding ring was slipping right off! (the start of a goal I have). I was hoping for at least 2lbs but really wanting and sort of expecting more. Weigh time..... and the result is.... zero. 0lbs lost. Ahhhhh. Stupid scale.
I was so mad I told Danny I wanted to box today. She had me do a small obstacle course and then we got to.
It felt good to hit something as hard as I could. "If ever I was to get punched in the face, it would be today" -Danny. We decided that if we lose a head or leg it would drop the weight we wanted, haha. Did you know the human head weighs 8lbs? I decided I would bring my Mashoonga swords next time...
She said she would weigh me on Monday and if it still hadn't changed much we would change up the meal program again.
Saturday, of course all my upper back muscles were sore from boxing. It was kinda nice for a change. I haven't had sore muscles for a while.
Fri meals were good. Sat morning started out good but ended not so good. I went to my parents to spend the day and swim. My mom was making strawberry jam. Strike one. I love strawberry jam so I had quite a few "tastes". It was finger lickin' good. I only had 3/6 of my meals. Strike two. The meals that I did have were good though. Frustrated but oh well. It was a hard day and then being around temptations wasn't great. Sunday is a new day...
Sunday, I am so depressed today. You guys don't want to hear this but I need to write it, sorry.. you can skip the rest.
Today, I didn't want to eat anything I'm suppose to so I didn't eat at all. (I know that's not the answer) Took a nap and skipped lunch. Whats the point in trying so hard to accomplish the same thing or nothing, faster?
I want to be done! 6 more weeks and I will have been training for 1yr with Danny but I'm not even half way done! When I started I figured at the most it would take 1yr to reach my goal. Well, here it is almost 1yr and not even half way there. It's not like I started at 400lbs or anything. I comes back to the sub-conscience self sabotaging. I or somebody else sets a goal for me but some how never reach it. I don't know why.
Example: I started out GREAT last year. With 11lb every 3wks, I was losing faster than her best client thus far. Goal was I could have 80lbs or more off by Christmas but never reached it. (Man I haven't even reached that goal today. Arg.)
I know I've lost 50lbs so far and I'm very proud of that but I want to be done. This is so frustrating. I'm tired of fixing 2 meals, i'm tired of not being able to eat what I want (sometimes). I'm tired of trying harder and nothing happening. I'm tired of measuring and timing my meals. I'm tired of stomach aches after every meal this last week+ (too much protein?). I'm tired of not being able to get on the stairmachine. I'm tired of my back hurting and not being able to do what I want and believe it or not, not being able to vacuum or do the dishes. My house is always dirty now. I'm tired of the gym being my life. I'm tired of expecting (very reasonable) goals but NEVER reaching them!!
I'm the one who always says Never Give Up. It must be for me, ha. But I'm done. I would say Time for some ice cream (to make me barf haha)... but probably not.
The End. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow.
By Donna Jones on May 16, 2011 1:12pm
how are you feeling today? you are doing an amazing job and i am really proud of you. keep it up :)By Christina B. on May 16, 2011 5:30am
1st, I'm gonna use that joke!!! It made me laugh out loud (the little things!!). 2nd, I just commented on your recent journal that you'll have these feelings every once and a while. Just tell yourself it will pass and the GREAT feelings will again overwhelm you!!!! It's a crazy journey, but it's so worth it!!!By KarlCobra on May 16, 2011 5:11am
Thanks for the journal. Don't get diappointed. There will be valleys and there will be mountains.By mikecalhoun on May 16, 2011 4:30am
i agree with everyone Rachel, stay the course, change things up when working out, try a combo of good foods to help you, there are several web sites you can go to for meals, even for diabetic meals, they are low in sugar or sugar free, get a workout dvd that you can do at home also, never give up, you have come this far, and not eating throw your body out of whack, then everything you eat gets stored as fat, and no one wants that!!! are you drinking plenty of water?? whatever you weigh, take half of that and make it oz, say you weigh 150 for example, 75 is half so you would need to drink 75 oz of water per day at the very least. are you taking any of the quadra cuts or liqui carn?? if not then go get some, they do work, don't drink ANY diet soda that has nutra sweet in it, that does more harm to your body than good!! their are plenty of good snack options out there, but don't get discouraged, stay away from the scale, it is your enemy!!! go by how you feel how your clothes feelBy Tanya on May 15, 2011 9:23pm
DO NOT GIVE UP!!!! ive been on this rollercoaster for several years!!!! give yourself a day to eat whatever!!! then jump back on track! of course wait til after your weigh in on monday! ;) you are doing great! keep it up!!!! its going to take time. dont put a time limit on it just do it knowing you will feel better. if working out makes you feel good do more of it change it up boxing sounds like a good change up! :)By Katie Sutherlin on May 15, 2011 6:59pm
I have totally been where you are at right now. Please don't give up, that is the easy way out. You have lost 50 lbs, that's awesome, I've only lost 21 and here I sit. Still have 63 lbs to go but I know it won't come off in 7 weeks, it's going to take a year at least with steady, consistent, good eating and exercise. Sometimes throwing in the towel and saying forget it is easier, but it's not the answer. You are doing fantastic, you can do this.By Joel Zinnecker on May 15, 2011 6:00pm
Sorry, I read the whole thing and didn't stop. I'm kind of glad I did, cuz you need a boost, so I'll take a shot. First, how long did it take to gain the weight your trying to lose? 10, 15 years? You have to give yourself time to adjust to getting smaller. I know you want it to be done, but you have to get excited about the progress and don't focus on the end goal. Think about the next five pounds, or the next % body fat, or the next new pair of jeans (because the old ones are falling off). That end goal will keep getting closer, but only if you keep working like you know you need to. You are a super star for the progress you have made. If it takes you another year or even two to reach that end goal, you have to get comfortable with that. Now, get back to doing the things that got you this far. You know what they are and eating the wrong stuff, or even worse not eating anything, is not the way. You can do it, I know you can, because you have before. Kick some butt, kid. JZ
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