Food. Food. Food. Plan. Plan. Plan.

I finally remembered to write the 2011 and not 2010 haha.

After every training session or gym time I always feel, “That was good. Now for a rest and then I need to do more.” I keep feeling I need to do MORE! When I’m actually doing a lot. It’s my FOOD that I need to do more with!! I don’t want to be the one who is given slack because I can’t hack it. I feel like that is where Danny is at with me right now. I don’t blame her either.

We talked today and I told her I knew the “more” needs to be my food. She looked at my food I sent last night and mentioned I tend to grab little things. Though them alone are not that bad but I do it a lot. Also she joked about my bread thing again but I know that is an issue as well; she’s just too nice to yell at me about it. :o/ I promise will only buy whole wheat bread from now on….

I CAN DO THIS AND I WILL DO THIS NOW! I HAVE to focus on food this week. That is my goal. Food. Food. Food. Oh I should say GOOD food haha, but that is a given. I am going to do a meal plan for the week AND stick too it. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me. I still need to finish my essay on why… So I will attach my meal plan to this entry.

Food

Breakfast: ~40g of sprouted wheat bread, 3 egg white & 1 egg, 1Tbs syrup

MM Omega, Multi, C, Glutamine, L-Carnitine

Snack: ~30g carb of pita bread baked chips & 2 scoops protein w/ Glucosamine 

Lunch: brown rice & lentil chicken soup

MM Omega & L-Carnitine 

Snack: berry protein shake (2 scoops), in between my cardio and weights

Snack: I am starving after my workout. 1c applesauce, 2 scoops protein shake (interesting combo of chocolate      

         applesauce).. 

Dinner: Salad, cabbage, 2 Tbs balsamic vinaigrette. I am so frustrated because I made some ground chicken for my salad 

        however, every bite I took had hard pieces of something in it, like bones. It was so bad it was uneatable. So I ended up 

         with a protein shake (2 scoops)

Snack: 2 scoops protein shake, MM Glucosamine, MM Omega, Glutamine

Workout

*Deep lunges down and back to stretch hip flexers

*Side squats down and back

*Plank on hands and press into downward facing dog & back, 30times

*Wide feet with hands on the ground; squatting with a flat back & head forward, then down to head down butt up., 30 times 

      They seemed fairly easy but as soon as she had me make sure my bum was back more, to protect my knees, then I

       found they hurt.

Rest. Next time it was 40 times each

*Squats. One leg on a bench behind you (flat part of the top of your foot on the bench) hands on head and squat down. 

       Make sure you are far enough in front of the bench. Also I had to be reminded to keep my chest up; don’t lean forward. 

       It took concentration. 12 reps of 3 sets each leg

*Forward lunge into a backward lunge is one, 10 times each leg. I hated those.

*Next set was with a weighted ball (4lbs?) in the same hand as the lunging leg. Straight arm up into the air; other arm 

       straight out to the side. 10 each leg

*Next set was with a thrust. As you lunge you bring the ball down to your chest and back up when you stand. 10 each leg.

I was so dizzy with these. I asked her, “Can I cry now? Haha” I think she liked that. :oD

*Laying on my chest on the inclined bench I did flies; one normal and then turned my hands like the direction of riding 

        a bike. One each is one. 5lbs, 12 reps, 3 sets. In between sets I did…

*Crunches where you sit on your bum, lean back on your hands and put your legs out then bend knees as you bring them 

       in to your chest. They started hurting my back so the next set was a mixture of different crunches.

Overall it was a good session. She’s going to weigh me on Wed and I better be at 209lb. If not I have to do stairs until I reach it. 10 stairs, weigh… 210.8lb. 10 more stairs, weigh… lol.

Well lunch is almost done and then it’s off to the gym in a ½ hr. Cardio & then weights with Mom.

Workout 2

Cardio

*Stairs fat burner, level 5, 12min x3! Plus extra 4mins at level 1? Total of 40min

*After weights I had time to do another 10min on the elliptical.

Weights

~40min, same as what we did this morning, only not quite as much because my mom wants to be able to walk tomorrow at 

     work. 

*Deep lunges down and back to stretch hip flexers

*Side squats down and back

*Plank on hands and press into downward facing dog & back, 30times

*Wide feet with hands on the ground; squatting with a flat back & head forward, then down to head down butt up., 30 times 

We did not do the 40 times

*Squats. One leg on a bench behind you. 3 sets of 12 each leg.

*Forward lunge into a backward lunge is one, 10 times each leg. 

       We didn’t do the other lunges.

*Flies like earlier followed by

*Lateral raises 7.5lb, 12 reps, 3 sets

Sorry this is so squished, but it was the only way to fit it...

	Sunday	Monday
Breakfast	French toast w/ 1Tbs real maple syrup
	OR Toast and veggie omelet w/o cheese
	OR oatmeal & eggs
Snack	Berry protein shake
Lunch	Pita bread Sandwich	Apple bee’s style  Tilapia
	sprouts	Lime marinade
	peppers	pico
	sliced turkey	seasoned rice
	mustard	steamed garlic broccli
Snack	Tuna Sandwich	Rice cake, PB & protein shake
	tomato
	pickle
	celery
	mayo
Dinner	Oriental Chicken Soup	Oriental chicken Soup
	bokchoy
	bamboo shoots
	shitake mushrooms
	onion
	tofu?
Snack	protein shake & PB

	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday
Breakfast
Snack
Lunch	Sushi	Sushi	Turkey Tacos
	rice		turkey
	crab		corn tortilla
	cucumber		pico
	diakon		lime
	other veggies		cabbage/lettuce
Snack	rice bowl w/ mango shrimp	curry rice & turkey	Tuna sandwich
Dinner	Lettuce Wraps	lettuce wraps	Taco Salad
	ice burg lettuce		ground turkey
	chicken mixture		salsa
	dipping sauce		onion
			tomato
			avacado
Snack	protein shake & PB

	Friday	Saturday	Friday
Breakfast
Snack
Lunch	Pita bread Sandwich	Turkey Tacos	Pita bread Sandwich
Snack	curry rice & turkey	rice cake, PB & protein shake	curry rice & turkey
Dinner	Turkey Soup	Taco Salad	Turkey Soup
Snack	protein shake & PB

 

I'm BACK! (mostly)

I am trying to get back into the swing of things... I will have to back track and add in more previous journals later....

      So I finally made it to the gym. I went to Danny’s yesterday but finally went on my own today. Well, not really on my own… Kaysea & Lisa were there, thankfully. Kaysea had a meeting at 9:30am so she could only do her stairs. Lisa wasn’t to be there until 9 so I did stairs with Kaysea. I started with my normal level 5 but within seconds I had to lower it all the way down. I am just still so tired. I finish my 12min and did another 17 or so. When Lisa came I made her join us for 5 mins :oD, haha. She will never want to be my friend after this haha.

Today I had Rachel P. say I looked great… she’s always so nice. I’m still frustrated about gaining but must realize I’m still building muscle so as soon as the fat comes off I will look awesome.

I notice more and more how my fat seems to be hanging off me. Its like I have my muscle there with a wiggly jiggly sack of flubber encased by skin. It’s gross but exciting in a morbid way.

I sure hope I start feeling even better soon. I want to be back to normal and exercising. Tonight I can barely talk without coughing. It’s feels so heavy in my chest. Like I’m breathing thick air. I sure hope I get to sleep quickly tonight. I hated last night.

Food:

Breakfast: 20g carb toast, Jiff (I finally got to the store, tonight, to exchange). I fixed eggs but they smelled HORRIBLE (I think the last thing I cooked in the cast iron skillet flavored it… not in a good way). So I fed it to Lilly and had protein shake (treating myself with some milk)

MM Glutamine, MM Omega, multi, C, Bosswella, glucosamin

Snack: blueberry protein shake w/ glutamine

Lunch: turkey subway sandwich w/ only ½ the bread, Omega

Snack: 40g sourdough bread french toast

Dinner: 

Exercise:

Lisa did these with me :oD I’m so proud of her. She is doing so well.

Cardio ~

*Stairs 30mins or so

Weights ~

*Cable Punches 22.5 or 27lbs, right into cable tricep pull downs 32.5lb

*Curls 17.5lbs

*Flies 75 or 80lbs for the first set (then lowered to 65lb because I was so worn out)

*Elbow plank 30sec

*Ab ball exercises from yesterday. Hands and feet in air like a dead cockroach, holding pilates ball between them. Opposite leg & arm lower to ground (while others hold the ball in place), reverse leg & arm. Then the next set of exercise was holding the ball with your feet while lowering your arms and legs to the ground and back up. Passing the ball to my hands and lowering again. Repeating.

I'm Back! (mostly)

So I finally made it to the gym. I went to Danny’s yesterday but finally went on my own today. Well, not really on my own… Kaysea & Lisa were there, thankfully. Kaysea had a meeting at 9:30am so she could only do her stairs. Lisa wasn’t to be there until 9 so I did stairs with Kaysea. I started with my normal level 5 but within seconds I had to lower it all the way down. I am just still so tired. I finish my 12min and did another 17 or so. When Lisa came I made her join us for 5 mins :oD, haha. She will never want to be my friend after this haha.
Today I had Rachel P. say I looked great… she’s always so nice. I’m still frustrated about gaining but must realize I’m still building muscle so as soon as the fat comes off I will look awesome.
I notice more and more how my fat seems to be hanging off me. Its like I have my muscle there with a wiggly jiggly sack of flubber encased by skin. It’s gross but exciting in a morbid way.
I sure hope I start feeling even better soon. I want to be back to normal and exercising. Tonight I can barely talk without coughing. It’s feels so heavy in my chest. Like I’m breathing thick air. I sure hope I get to sleep quickly tonight. I hated last night.

Food:
Breakfast: 20g carb toast, Jiff (I finally got to the store, tonight, to exchange). I fixed eggs but they smelled HORRIBLE (I think the last thing I cooked in the cast iron skillet flavored it… not in a good way). So I fed it to Lilly and had protein shake (treating myself with some milk)
MM Glutamine, MM Omega, multi, C, Bosswella, glucosamin
Snack: blueberry protein shake w/ glutamine
Lunch: turkey subway sandwich w/ only ½ the bread, Omega
Snack: 40g sourdough bread french toast
Dinner:

Exercise:
Lisa did these with me :oD I’m so proud of her. She is doing so well.
Cardio ~
*Stairs 30mins or so
Weights ~
*Cable Punches 22.5 or 27lbs, right into cable tricep pull downs 32.5lb
*Curls 17.5lbs
*Flies 75 or 80lbs for the first set (then lowered to 65lb because I was so worn out)
*Elbow plank 30sec
*Ab ball exercises from yesterday. Hands and feet in air like a dead cockroach, holding pilates ball between them. Opposite leg & arm lower to ground (while others hold the ball in place), reverse leg & arm. Then the next set of exercise was holding the ball with your feet while lowering your arms and legs to the ground and back up. Passing the ball to my hands and lowering again. Repeating.

Emotionally Bad Day.

Food
Breakfast: french toast 3 whites, 1egg (okay, I won’t waste your time or mine anymore. I’m not going to put
the whites/egg thing anymore unless it is different. There.)
MM Liquid Carnitine 1tbs
Snack: berry protein shake, almonds
MM liquid Carnitine 1 tbs (to hopefully help me thru the day of cleaning 2 houses, homework, &
volunteering at the school), MM Omega 3 plus, Vit C, Bosewella (herbal anti-inflammatory for my back)
Multi-vit, glucosamine. I am skipping the MM glutamine, today, to see if that is what was causing the
upset stomach. I also added that sample of MM Pro BCAA to my shake. The powder tasted pretty good!
(though the after taste I could taste the sweetener) It gave my shake a kick!
Still don’t know what it actually does different than the other items but will look into it more...
I am so angry with myself right now….
Lunch: PB & honey sandwich. I ran outta bread last night and used hamburger buns. (1st mistake) I thought I
would give myself a treat and had a spoonful of Nutella. (I figured this was okay but now... it’s my 2nd
mistake). I had a protein shake to take but someone called and I had to run out sooner than expected
and forgot it (3rd mistake) Ahhh.
Snack: I was out and thought a war-wonton soup would be a nice change. It would have my fat from the
extra meats, protein, veggies and carb from the wontons (though they weren’t good carbs), plus very
filling. Of course they gave me the fried crispy strips. Not thinking…. “Oh I can have that as my fat and a
little extra carbs won’t hurt” Not even thinking of it being refined crap. (4th mistake) OR that I already
had figured in my fats (5th mistake). Ahhhhhh! Oh and go figure it upset my stomach.

There is NO way I can win this competition with that sort of crap! I don’t have great hopes of winning, now, anyway. I look at other women, at the gym, who are starting to show muscles and doing awesome workouts, then start to worry if they are competing as well. Do I have to go up against that person? There is no way!! They are sooo far ahead of me. I can’t change THAT much in such a short amount of time!!! Especially, my stomach area. I have soo much extra skin there. I won’t have the great abs they are looking for. They are going to want someone much more well toned. What was I thinking getting my hopes so high. I am so depressed and angry.

Dinner: I don’t want to eat. >:o(
Snack: same
Okay so I was too weak and hungry I figured I better eat something. I had a protein shake (they are really good with milk) and a bowl of cheerios. I better go to bed. I am ready for this day to be over.


Workout
~Stairs, 12min but I could not do the level 6, it was too much strain on my back. So I lowered the level way down but still was on the fat burner.

~Crunches 50 with legs raised. 25 leg raises. 25 twisted on each side (I hope that is okay with Dr. Leavitt. I will have to ask)

~Bike for about 10min.
We did legs with Kaysea & Lisa. Who showed up just as we were about to start and talked her into doing them with us. I was so excited to have her there!!! She is planning on coming on Tuesdays with us. :oD

~Circuit of leg presses. 120lbs, 25 reps. Followed by
~Lunges. 30 each leg. I don’t think I did that many the last set. :o/ Into
~Calf raises 30. 3 sets of all.

~Circuit of squats 15
~Leg extensions 50lbs, 15reps
~Hamstring curls 50lbs, 15reps. 3 sets

I didn’t know how to use the hamstring machine so I laughed and had to ask a older gentleman who was previously on it. Haha. Duh. I am always afraid of looking like one of those goofballs who don’t know what they are doing and won’t last a week. Arg. Oh well, comfort zone… there. Me…..here. I did have one younger guy watching what was going on while he rested between his sets and later when I switched legs he commented with a smile, “15reps? Good job.” He was sincere and in no way made me feel creepy. :oD
Now off to shower. Clean Adrianne’s house. Help at the school. Clean my house. Woohoo… I feel like I need to be doing more in order to get where I want. What can I do more? What should I be doing more?
Okay now this is is when I hit my wall and everything went down hill for the day.