Emotionally Bad Day.

Food
Breakfast: french toast 3 whites, 1egg (okay, I won’t waste your time or mine anymore. I’m not going to put
the whites/egg thing anymore unless it is different. There.)
MM Liquid Carnitine 1tbs
Snack: berry protein shake, almonds
MM liquid Carnitine 1 tbs (to hopefully help me thru the day of cleaning 2 houses, homework, &
volunteering at the school), MM Omega 3 plus, Vit C, Bosewella (herbal anti-inflammatory for my back)
Multi-vit, glucosamine. I am skipping the MM glutamine, today, to see if that is what was causing the
upset stomach. I also added that sample of MM Pro BCAA to my shake. The powder tasted pretty good!
(though the after taste I could taste the sweetener) It gave my shake a kick!
Still don’t know what it actually does different than the other items but will look into it more...
I am so angry with myself right now….
Lunch: PB & honey sandwich. I ran outta bread last night and used hamburger buns. (1st mistake) I thought I
would give myself a treat and had a spoonful of Nutella. (I figured this was okay but now... it’s my 2nd
mistake). I had a protein shake to take but someone called and I had to run out sooner than expected
and forgot it (3rd mistake) Ahhh.
Snack: I was out and thought a war-wonton soup would be a nice change. It would have my fat from the
extra meats, protein, veggies and carb from the wontons (though they weren’t good carbs), plus very
filling. Of course they gave me the fried crispy strips. Not thinking…. “Oh I can have that as my fat and a
little extra carbs won’t hurt” Not even thinking of it being refined crap. (4th mistake) OR that I already
had figured in my fats (5th mistake). Ahhhhhh! Oh and go figure it upset my stomach.

There is NO way I can win this competition with that sort of crap! I don’t have great hopes of winning, now, anyway. I look at other women, at the gym, who are starting to show muscles and doing awesome workouts, then start to worry if they are competing as well. Do I have to go up against that person? There is no way!! They are sooo far ahead of me. I can’t change THAT much in such a short amount of time!!! Especially, my stomach area. I have soo much extra skin there. I won’t have the great abs they are looking for. They are going to want someone much more well toned. What was I thinking getting my hopes so high. I am so depressed and angry.

Dinner: I don’t want to eat. >:o(
Snack: same
Okay so I was too weak and hungry I figured I better eat something. I had a protein shake (they are really good with milk) and a bowl of cheerios. I better go to bed. I am ready for this day to be over.


Workout
~Stairs, 12min but I could not do the level 6, it was too much strain on my back. So I lowered the level way down but still was on the fat burner.

~Crunches 50 with legs raised. 25 leg raises. 25 twisted on each side (I hope that is okay with Dr. Leavitt. I will have to ask)

~Bike for about 10min.
We did legs with Kaysea & Lisa. Who showed up just as we were about to start and talked her into doing them with us. I was so excited to have her there!!! She is planning on coming on Tuesdays with us. :oD

~Circuit of leg presses. 120lbs, 25 reps. Followed by
~Lunges. 30 each leg. I don’t think I did that many the last set. :o/ Into
~Calf raises 30. 3 sets of all.

~Circuit of squats 15
~Leg extensions 50lbs, 15reps
~Hamstring curls 50lbs, 15reps. 3 sets

I didn’t know how to use the hamstring machine so I laughed and had to ask a older gentleman who was previously on it. Haha. Duh. I am always afraid of looking like one of those goofballs who don’t know what they are doing and won’t last a week. Arg. Oh well, comfort zone… there. Me…..here. I did have one younger guy watching what was going on while he rested between his sets and later when I switched legs he commented with a smile, “15reps? Good job.” He was sincere and in no way made me feel creepy. :oD
Now off to shower. Clean Adrianne’s house. Help at the school. Clean my house. Woohoo… I feel like I need to be doing more in order to get where I want. What can I do more? What should I be doing more?
Okay now this is is when I hit my wall and everything went down hill for the day.

Really? I inspired someone?

"I believe that you measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you." - The Bucket List

I have had an emotional roller-coaster of a day and it’s only 10am. I started out with yelling at my kids (I’m sorry kiddos) and so angry… to listening to an audio book, and crying because it was so cool (Tennis Shoes Among the Nephites Series: Tower of Thunder)… to laughing so hard while talking with Danny & Nate… and being excited again about pushing myself as far as I can go in the Challenge.

Danny told mr that Jen, MM store owner, text her and excitedly asked if I was going to be the next Korie or Debb. If she wants to be. :oD Really? Could I really surpass them? Could I win? Danny hasn’t come out and said it, but I think she might have high hopes.

Today she gave me 35lbs for an inclined bench press. AHHHH! Really? I honestly tried but I couldn’t even get them up for one haha. I gave in and said I needed less :o( (haha) I think that has been a first. Hey, there are firsts for everything (well, almost everything) lol. So we did the 25lbs again. I really struggled with it today because I am still sore from Monday AND I was dumb enough to do them yesterday as well. But I made it. I did 3 sets? Or maybe it was 4, of 15 reps. I got scared a couple of times, that I was going to drop them on myself. Stitches and a scar would look great on my final photos, lol. I was shaking. 

She said that the inclines are easier than the flat but they were still way hard... I was shocked when she said that I motivated her when she was doing them herself yesterday. She would normally give in and only do 12 but she still had a little in her and thought “if Rachel can do it?” :oD Really? I inspired someone? Cool.

I still couldn’t believe that I was stronger than her on the rows. She said that when I lose the weight she better watch out and get her “Rocky moves/training on” because I will be stronger than her since I am already strong. That will be the day, haha. 

Something else exciting… we also got talking about new clothes and she said she was excited to go shopping with me! Woohoo! That would be fun! She’s “stylish” haha & has good taste. (“The both of us will be singing a duet together.” “How redundant.”… Name that movie…) I’m so plain & boring. It will be fun.

Overall, it was a great training session today… Oh and we will probably be planning a laser tag game for this weekend. Wahoo! 

Oh AND something else I noticed that was nice was that I wasn’t as tired today! I even came home ready to clean my house!!! I know the Carnitine is what has made the difference. I didn’t take any yesterday; that’s probably why I was so dang tired. I just don’t want to get addicted to it and feel that I need it to workout…. Hmmm, could that happen?

If this doesn't make you want to eat here...

Food

Breakfast: egg sandwich, 3 whites, 1 egg, mustard, slice of cheese, bread

MM omega 3, MM glutamine, MM Creatine, Multi-vitamin, vit-c

Snack: handful cashews, berry protein shake

Lunch: protein shake, pb & honey sandwich, 

forgot my MM omega 3

Snack: tuna salad w/ pickle, celery, mayo, Multi-grain crackers, 

MM glutamine & glucosamine 

Dinner: egg sandwich again I was so tired and hungry I had carbs. I HAVE to have 2 afternoon snacks.

Snack: skip cuz going to bed.

Workout 1

~warm up on Treadmill 3.5 for about 10-15min

~Lunges 

Stand and lunge forward, step back into place, lunge at an angle, step back into place, lunge to the side, step back. Think of it as a clock 12, 1:30, 3. 10reps 3 sets each leg.

She was going to have me alternate legs but decided not to because it would “hurt more”. (Like cutting his heart out with a spoon, “because it hurts more you twit.” Name that movie….. )

~Inclined press, 25lbs, 15reps

~Right into body rows on the cables but it was much deeper. I was more angled towards the floor. Scarrryyyy. Haha 15reps. I had to stop around 8 and then 13ish to rest a sec.

~Right into push ups on my toes! As many as I could do. But she wanted at least 5. I didn’t go down very far but she said they were good so I took that. :o) I think I hate them because my back starts aching before my arms do. However, it did pretty good today; I was pleasantly surprised.

Rest 1 min and then again. 3 or 4 sets.

~Pulling jump ups. Similar to the jump overs I have done before on the lat pulled down machine. Where you hold the bar and help pull yourself up but this time instead of going over you just pull up and give a jump with the leg on the bench seat. Make sense?

12 each leg. 3 or 4 sets. I think it was just 3.

Workout 2

Went back to the gym with my mom. I love her! She did so good today. It was her first day doing weights in a very looong time. We did arms since that’s what I did today.

~Bike for 10-15min until my mom got there.

~Punches with the cables, 17.5lbs (should go up next time. Mom did 12lb) single arm while holding other arm out. Followed by

~Bosu ball jump overs, 30, like I did on Monday. I sure hope my mom can walk at work tomorrow, as would I. Rest 1 min. 15reps of punches & 3 sets of all

~Tricep pull downs on the rope cable. Started at 40lb but the next 2 sets were only 30lb. It was a little easy but they didn’t have 35lb (Mom was doing 20lb). Alternating with

~Lat pull downs 85lb the first set & 70 the last two sets (Mom did 50ish?) 15reps, 3 sets

~Circuit of inclined chest press (Mom 15lbs) 25lb only 12 reps because I had already done them today.

~Bicep curls, 17.5lbs 15reps (Mom’s were 10lb)

~Rows, like last week (Mom 15lbs?) 40lb for the first set but it was hurting my back so I went down to 30lb. 3 sets

~Elliptical for 15min until I had to go get the kids from school.

I felt good after until close to dinner when hunger-? and exhaustion hit. I felt good after eating and then hit a wall. I am fighting my way thru writing this so I can get my snack and go to bed. Maybe I will skip my snack and just go to bed….

Really? I inspired someone?

I have had an emotional roller-coaster of a day and it’s only 10am. I started out with yelling at my kids (I’m sorry kiddos) and so angry… to listening to an audio book, and crying because it was so cool (Tennis Shoes Among the Nephites Series: Tower of Thunder)… to laughing so hard while talking with Danny & Nate… and being excited again about pushing myself as far as I can go in the Challenge.
Today she gave me 35lbs for an inclined bench press. AHHHH! Really? I honestly tried but I couldn’t even get them up for one haha. I gave in and said I needed less :o( (haha) I think that has been a first. Hey, there are firsts for everything (well, almost everything) lol. So we did the 25lbs again. I really struggled with it today because I am still sore from Monday AND I was dumb enough to do them yesterday as well. But I made it. I did 3 sets? Or maybe it was 4, of 15 reps. I got scared a couple of times, that I was going to drop them on myself. Stitches and a scar would look great on my final photos, lol. I was shaking.
She said that the inclines are easier than the flat but they were still way hard... I was shocked when she said that I motivated her when she was doing them herself yesterday. She would normally give in and only do 12 but she still had a little in her and thought “if Rachel can do it?” :oD Really? I inspired someone? Cool.
"I believe that you measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you." - The Bucket List
Overall, it was a great training session today…
Oh AND something else I noticed that was nice was that I wasn’t as tired today! I even came home ready to clean my house!!! I know the Carnitine is what has made the difference. I didn’t take any yesterday; that’s probably why I was so dang tired. I just don’t want to get addicted to it and feel that I need it to workout…. Hmmm, could that happen?

Food
Breakfast: egg sandwich, 3 whites, 1 egg, mustard, slice of cheese, bread
MM omega 3, MM glutamine, MM Creatine, Multi-vitamin, vit-c
Snack: handful cashews, berry protein shake
Lunch: protein shake, pb & honey sandwich,
forgot my MM omega 3
Snack: tuna salad w/ pickle, celery, mayo, Multi-grain crackers,
MM glutamine & glucosamine
Dinner: egg sandwich again I was so tired and hungry I had carbs. I HAVE to have 2 afternoon snacks.
Snack: skip cuz going to bed.

Workout 1~warm up on Treadmill 3.5 for about 10-15min

~Lunges
Stand and lunge forward, step back into place, lunge at an angle, step back into place, lunge to the side, step back. Think of it as a clock 12, 1:30, 3. 10reps 3 sets each leg.
She was going to have me alternate legs but decided not to because it would “hurt more”. (Like cutting his heart out with a spoon, “because it hurts more you twit.” Name that movie….. )

~Inclined press, 25lbs, 15reps
~Right into body rows on the cables but it was much deeper. I was more angled towards the floor. Scarrryyyy. Haha 15reps. I had to stop around 8 and then 13ish to rest a sec.
~Right into push ups on my toes! As many as I could do. But she wanted at least 5. I didn’t go down very far but she said they were good so I took that. :o) I think I hate them because my back starts aching before my arms do. However, it did pretty good today; I was pleasantly surprised.
Rest 1 min and then again. 3 or 4 sets.

~Pulling jump ups. Similar to the jump overs I have done before on the lat pulled down machine. Where you hold the bar and help pull yourself up but this time instead of going over you just pull up and give a jump with the leg on the bench seat. Make sense?
12 each leg. 3 or 4 sets. I think it was just 3.

Workout 2Went back to the gym with my mom. I love her! She did so good today. It was her first day doing weights in a very looong time. We did arms since that’s what I did today.

~Bike for 10-15min until my mom got there.

~Punches with the cables, 17.5lbs (should go up next time. Mom did 12lb) single arm while holding other arm out. Followed by
~Bosu ball jump overs, 30, like I did on Monday. I sure hope my mom can walk at work tomorrow, as would I. Rest 1 min. 15reps of punches & 3 sets of all

~Tricep pull downs on the rope cable. Started at 40lb but the next 2 sets were only 30lb. It was a little easy but they didn’t have 35lb (Mom was doing 20lb). Alternating with
~Lat pull downs 85lb the first set & 70 the last two sets (Mom did 50ish?) 15reps, 3 sets

~Circuit of inclined chest press (Mom 15lbs) 25lb only 12 reps because I had already done them today.
~Bicep curls, 17.5lbs 15reps (Mom’s were 10lb)
~Rows, like last week (Mom 15lbs?) 40lb for the first set but it was hurting my back so I went down to 30lb. 3 sets

~Elliptical for 15min until I had to go get the kids from school.

I felt good after until close to dinner when hunger-? and exhaustion hit. I felt good after eating and then hit a wall. I am fighting my way thru writing this so I can get my snack and go to bed. Maybe I will skip my snack and go to bed....

Bought my MM supplements

Breakfast: egg sandwich, mustard, 3 whites, 1 egg, slice of cheese

Snack: berry protein shake, handful of cashews 

Lunch: pb & honey sandwich 

                (I know Danny… no protein…. I was too worn out and lazy to fix it…. Kick my *butt* down the street.)

Snack: apple, peas, handful of almonds

Snack: protein bar from MM store

Dinner: Large salad, 117g herb crusted chicken 

Snack: pb & protein shake

K__ and I started weights, finally on our own, today. I did: 

tricep kick backs 15lb, 15reps, 3sets

Push ups 15reps, 3 sets

Chest press 25lb, 12reps, 2 sets (only becasue I did them yesterday)

Chest flies 75lbs, 15reps, 3 sets

I wanted to do more but K__ didn’t have much time and wanted to do the stair master.

Did 45min on the stair master. I had to stop many times (mostly because my back was too sore) so I probably did about 35min, but that is still awesome for me. I started out on level 6 but my back was so sore I stopped after 15min or so and went to level 0 or 1 (which ever is the lowest). I think I need to back off on the stairs for a bit until my back can build up.

Yesterday’s workout was GREAT!! I woke up during the night with my left quad so sore it felt massive. My chest is also extremely sore. I am also soo tired today. I stand up and feel I could collapse. No wonder my house doesn’t get cleaned. Arg. I finally was able to sit and go thru stuff in my room to help clean it. 

I got to go to the Max Muscle store; with my parents. We got to met Jen, owner, and her son, Steve (or Steven). They were very helpful and very knowledgable. They knew Danny well and you could tell they are very impressed with her. “She has a great track record.” I sure know that, haha.

I bought the Omega 3, Creatine stuff and glutamine. I am excited to get started with them and see how they are different than the ones I have been taking.

Got My MM Supplements!!! Yea!

Breakfast: egg sandwich, mustard, 3 whites, 1 egg, slice of cheese
Snack: berry protein shake, handful of cashews
Lunch: pb & honey sandwich (I know Danny… no protein…. I was too worn out and lazy to fix it…. Kick my *butt* down the street.)
Snack: apple, peas, handful of almonds
Snack: protein bar from MM store
Dinner: Large salad, 117g herb crusted chicken
Snack: pb & protein shake

K. and I started weights, on our own, today. I did:
tricep kick backs 15lb, 15reps, 3sets
Push ups 15reps, 3 sets
Chest press 25lb, 12reps, 2 sets (only becasue I did them yesterday)
Chest flies 75lbs, 15reps, 3 sets
I wanted to do more but K. didn’t have much time and wanted to do the stair master.

Did 45min on the stair master with Kaysea. I had to stop many times (mostly because my back was too sore) so I probably did about 35min, but that is still awesome for me. I started out on level 6 but my back was so sore I stopped after 15min or so and went to level 0 or 1 (which ever is the lowest).

Yesterday’s workout was GREAT!! I woke up during the night with my left quad so sore; it felt massive. My chest is also extremely sore. I am also soo tired today. I stand up and could just collapse. No wonder my house doesn’t get cleaned. Arg. I finally was able to sit and go thru stuff in my room to help clean it.
I got to go to the Max Muscle store; with my parents. We got to met Jen, owner, and her son, Steve (or Steven). They were very helpful and very knowledgable. They knew Danny well and you could tell they are very impressed with her. “She has a great track record.” I sure know that, haha.
I bought the Omega 3, Creatine stuff and glutamine. I am excited to get started with them and see how they are different.

More to come

More posts are to come shortly. I am working on entering my previous posts and working up to the present. Please stay tuned.

It's 1-1-11 !!!!

I am not one to start New Year's Resolutions come January 1st. If I'm making a goal I want to start right then. I started this "journey" in July and did great the first 2 months and lost 30lbs. I have since stalled.
So even though this is beginning again on Jan. 1st I am grateful for something new to work towards and motivate me.
At first I thought "oh this will be fun. We will see how far I can go." But the more I thought about it the more I realized I need to shoot to win this thing... and by golly... I think I WILL. hehe
Today we did our New Year's tradition and went swimming. So fun... 29degrees outside and the water was 92degrees inside.
Food today was hard. Breakfast for everyone consited of bacon, sausage, baked french toast, hot chocolate, cream cheese, stuffed french toast filling. I really wanted some bacon, but I did not. I couldn't bare the thoughts of a new challenge and the first day caving. I mean REALLY?! Then came lunch. I needed extra fat, right? So I could have cheese and some bacon on my sandwich, right? REALLY? What was I thinking?! I even got it ready on my plate to warm up and ended up putting it back. Thank goodness.

Breakfast: 2 slices of french toast made with 3 egg whites & 1 egg and a little syrup
Snack: missed cuz swimming
Lunch: sliced turkey sandwich, little mayo, tomato, pickle, onion, lettuce, mustard
Snack: handful of almonds, dehydrated mangos (not much though)
dinner: Applebee's portabella mushroom covered chicken (forgot to order w/o cheese) with double steamed veggies, 1/2 oriental grilled chicken salad w/ a little dressing. I gave the salad chicken to Trey.

I'm finally got use to ordering a little different at restaurants but I am starting to realize... and need to start doing it... asking the smaller things like "what's this sautéed in?" Or like tonight I ordered steamed veggies. Healthy? Not quite. They still add butter to them. Arg. No wonder they taste so good at restaurants verses home. I MUST start asking!
I can't wait to start my new MM items! I get to pick them up on Monday with my mom. I think I will be getting the fish oils, glutamine and carintine.
Well, it's 9pm and one thing I must start doing is going to bed at a good hour. So starting now, I shall.
Note: other things I need to start doing better
]bed on time
measuring & weighing everything
measure water intake
asking for more details at restaurants, if I want to eat out.